When we liking someone
World shows its beauty
But then as the time passes as we liking them
We might get tired

When this syndrome is came for the first year we liked them
We will listened too much love songs till our ears bleeding *nahh*

When the second year came
We will thinking about them in almost every occasion

When the third year came
When we think too much about them, our tears will fall

When fourth year is almost come
We will try to search for someone better

For my case
I’ve tried, but till now, i still can’t really found someone better

Maybe i shall really take a good looking for some guys,
Or only set my eyes to him
*ew, what have i wrote!?*
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Ok, i’m gonna puke on these stupid writing
*honestly, i’m really getting sick of this post* :-&

BUT, these days, their relationship is really like the other couple, like holding hands when they were walking together, touching each other’s hairs or face, feeding each other to try some new dishes, and the other NORMAl couple will do if they’re on a date, and to be honest.. it’s disgusting. i’ve tried to forgot my disgusted feeling, and then my friend is texting her when she was having lovey-dovey time with her “husband”, and tell her about our feeling when they were done that lovey-dovey things. And i REALLY THOUGHT that it will NEVER HAPPENED AGAIN.

but really, my thought was really not long-lasting. it’s pathetic everytime you saw your friends are doing the things that they’re supposed to laugh at it.

i don’t really care what they’re doing when they’re not with me (they’re not children for god’s sake, they’ve learn what’s good and what’s wrong), but I’LL REALLY APPRECIATE it if they’re stopping their lovey-dovey moment for a while when they’re having some time with us. just stop it for a while, is it that hard?

PS : i know my english is pretty bad, but please bear with it, it’s more pathetic to say these things in Indonesian

God..
i know that i’m being greedy
but can i ask You for one more prayer?
maybe more after that
i’m sorry for disturbing Your peace
but i can’t help it..

i really need Your guide right now
i need You to show me path that i should walked in
I need You to strengthen my heart
thanks God, for giving me time to disturb Your peace

Selalu ingin ada di sampingnya ketika masa masa sulit
Tapi tak kunjung datang
Selalu ingin mendengar kisah kisahnya
Tapi tak kunjung mendengarkan

Saya bukan kakak yang baik
Bukan orang baik pula
Tapi saya selalu ingin bertanya,
‘Apa kabar dik?’
‘Apa kau baik baik saja disana?’
‘Bagaimana sekolahmu?’
‘Siapa yang sedang dekat denganmu?’

Ingin sekali bertanya,
Tapi sayang saya bukan kakak yang baik

i’ll laughs hard when you’re saying something that’s not even funny

i’ll smile at you even when i’m not really liking you

well, that’s me

it’s me in real life

“not funny, you’re not fun, or i don’t like you”

my feeling in real life

it does nothing in here, second life

or so i thought

i always enjoyed myself for talking to you guys if i’m in a good mood to talk to other people

even it’s the one that i don’t really liked in person (rl)

i’m here to have fun

i’m not the one who will ignores you when i don’t liked you

i won’t criticize you when you do wrong, or doing something annoying

because all of those feeling is our feeling in rl

and i don’t want to mix it.. if i’m in a good mood

so i’ll makes you feel comfortable here, in second life

let’s have some fun.. together

i’ll laugh hard here, not in my rl

i’ll smile at you here, not in my rl

i’ll try to makes you feel comfortable here

well yes, i’m definitely a liar

tapi ikatan yang telah diberikan Tuhan sekalipun, tidak akan membuat sesama manusia mengerti satu sama lainnya
dan untuk mengerti satu sama lain, adalah hal yang tidak diperlukan
karena manusia berubah setiap saat
saya sekarang bukanlah saya yang kemarin
dan jauh dari saya yang dulu
saya adalah saya, yang saat ini

tidak perlu bagi keluarga untuk mengerti yang ada dalam pikiran satu sama lain
yang paling penting adalah ikatan sebuah ‘keluarga’
yang membuat saya bisa kembali ‘pulang’